What will I see when the image crumbles?

It's being ages a I posted anything! What's being up with me? I've being doing a check on myself and I've being trying to answer this question: What will I see when the image crumbles? Sometimes I get scared trying to answer that question but I'm earnestly working so that I'm beautiful inside and outside. The Lord's my strength sha! I'm going to shine

Living my life!

I'm back from my 2 weeks hiatus (or was it longer?). I didn't post anything 'cos I was either busy, starting but never posting or trying too hard for the perfect post.
Well I just read a post that got me thinking. I know I fall into this category - thinking too hard, not wanting to be anyone's bad books 'cos of my "bluntness" , trying to be miss perfect but never actually living the life God has planned for me. I've also just realized that me and a whole host of other people live this same life. God help us! So from now on I'm going to live, yes live!

Fanatic? Not Yet!

Someone just told I'm on the verge of becoming a fanatic but "puh-lease" I don't think I'm one at least not yet. I would love to be a fanactic of Christ but I haven't gotten there yet and I'ld really love to be. This growth process ain't easy o! I listened to a preacher today (I'm gradualy falling in love with him, not Him but the God in Him!) And he said something that really struck my heart - We ask God for some things mostly because they are religious, christisn cliches, but we fail to realize this things will actually come to pass. Anyways somtimes I get scared beacuse I've asked to make me more like Him, I've asked that the me in me will diminish so that He'll increase in me. But am I really ready for it, the result of the prayer? Ah! God help me!

The weekend is here but is it actually going to be a weekend? There's a wedding tomorrow but I'm also supposed to come to work - saturday & sunday! Arghhh! I've actually not had any good rest in like 2 weeks, there was another wedding last week and I've being working late for the past 2 weeks, men ko ez o! Is this what the life of a career person is supposed to be like? I guess not. It's being a tiring week and I need some rest and fun! Hopefully I'll get that this weekend though I'm supposed to busy. Hmph!

Word for the day:

Hebrews 4:15 "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin."

I can live a victorious christian life - I have the freedom of choice to walk in obeience to God

The Challenge

I woke up at exactly midnight because my phone was ringing and I was also dreaming my phone was ringing. Ha! I was fagged out and didn’t want to answer because I was fagged out. Well I eventually answered it and it was my old boyfriend calling to tell me he just got into the country, well I was glad to hear from him because he’s one of the few good friends I have. Yeah so after the call I had a bout of insomnia, considering I was tired I just could not understand why “precious sleep” wasn’t forthcoming. Anyway after that I started to think, meditate about my life.

And then I start to wonder about my faith. I'm a christian, I love God a lot but then there's this challenge of leaving for Christ and being vocal about my faith. Now, it's not about throwing it at people but about the love of Christ filling me within so that it's who I am, what I am, my totality! I want to "reek" of His love. I don't just want my love for Him to be on the iside, I want to go beyond professing the faith to... (English fails me!).

Word for the day:
Rom 8:6-7 For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject, to the law of God, neither indeed can be.

Following Up + Careers

Well it's been ages since the last post. Ok i thot i'ld continue with it but apparently I haven't. I'l try to keep up with this.

Okay work's been the only thing I've been into lately and I'm wonderng is programming what i want to do in the next phase of my life? I'm not sure. It's intresting but mind draining. I'm still thinkin of what I want to do professionally. Sure I have other things I'm passionate about but they are businesses. So that gets me wondering with the BSc. I worked hard to get is that all I'm going to do, throw it away after like 2 yrs? Men God knows what's best for me and I'm hoping something good comes up soon career-wise.

welcome

I finally get round to starting this blog thanks to loads of inspiration from the Queen of offline messages. I hope I keep this up though.